About an hour into my listen of this audiobook, I was convinced that it was going to be my first 5/5 read of the year. I was lost in Marisa Crane’s intensely emotional writing, and felt like I was living in the skin of another person, feeling what they felt. Then, as the story shifted from something amorphous and reflective into a more traditional plot, I ran headfirst into walls of frustration and disappointment. The things I love about this book are intoxicating, but it wasn’t enough to hold the story together until the ending for me.

The Premise
In this version of America, those who harm others receive an additional shadow. Those with shadows are second class citizens: taxed higher, let go from jobs, harassed on the street. And of course, fairness and justice aren’t particularly high on the list of concerns for the government organization assigning shadows, and people of color, queer folks, and those living with mental health challenges are much more likely to get one. That list includes Kris, who just lost her wife in childbirth, and her newborn baby who got a second shadow for ‘killing’ her mother during birth. Lost in grief, Kris must find a path forward in this world and figure out how to life her life (and raise a child) when the lodestone of her world is gone.
Read If Looking For: meditations on grief and motherhood, dynamic queer relationships (romantic and platonic), thoughtful depictions of mental health struggles
Avoid if Looking For: dystopian settings with the intensity of The Handmaid’s Tale, realistic depictions of children








